Wednesday, July 24, 2013
I am trying to be very honest with myself about my eating. I have to work on the why in order to keep the weight at bay. I am trying to figure out why I over eat and what plan to put in place. Here is a couple of things I have started to figure out.
1. I am an emotional eater, give me an emotion and I eat. I eat out of sheer boredom....sitting in front of the TV and my mind goes off and I eat. I don't really enjoy what I eat, I just consume.
2. I do not eat what I truly want....I eat what is either around or what I think my family will eat. There are certain menus and foods that get me really excited-Maui Maui with a Mango Jalapeno Salsa....A fresh Corn salad with feta cheese. Steak with Blue Cheese Butter....and so forth. I have pictures in my head about what food I would really like to eat, and that is what I am going to act upon. My family will simply have to come along for the ride....
3. I eat out of anger....when I get upset at my dear hubby, I go an eat....my internal voice goes something like this..."I will show him, I will eat....cake, brownie, cereal with toast, pbj, I will show him I am in control of my world"....can we say crazy thinking? Insane internal voice? Who am I hurting? Not my hubby, even in some type of twisted way. Wow! how we lie to ourselves.
4. Finding a positive turn around. When we have these negative crazy thoughts instead of acting on them in a way that will be negative against ourselves, what can I do that would be positive? When I get bored and my mind starts an inventory of the pantry and fridge, what can I do that will be beneficial to myself? Here is my list:- have a knitting project, read or listen to my Bible, knit and listen to my Bible or an audio book. Go outside and take a look at my flowers, garden, animals, sunset anything to just remove myself. Work on my recipe books....I have a couple of Smash Books that I seem to never have time to work on...
Get the idea? Do something anything positive....change that internal voice that screams at us all the time with false information. I will no longer be defined by my weight.